where does the time go when it's not around here?

it's been a month and a half since I've found the time to post. I largely blame it on my submission to the theatre. I remember Janette, one of my theatre teachers in high school used to believe in the theatre spirits/gods/pixies/insertyourfavouritemythicalcreaturehere. Well if she believes that they really exist, then I belive that there exists some sort of theatre purgatory where people slip into during shows. I swear - Ruddigore took a giant bite out of three months of my life, chewed on it, sucked on it, then spat it out in a glory of theatrical wonder.

now don't get me wrong - the show was fantastic, the cast was fantastic - everything was... fantastic. BUT WHERE DID THOSE THREE MONTHS GO? HONESTLY?

the interesting side effect of it is that you delve so deep into the world, that you forget that everyone outside isn't watching your every move (a common feeling when you're an actor) so you wonder why they bitch and cry "WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN FOR THREE MONTHS?"

my response: "uhh... I moved into the theatre. yeah... i live under the stage.... in a box"

Yes it's true.... life does go on when you're not looking.


I keep asking myself why I didn't decide to study theatre in university. In retrospect, it's been great studying philosophy and religion - I've amassed a great amount of knowledge. BUT I think I would have amassed a huge amount more of life experience if I had been studying theatre.

It's been beautiful working with vcp, but I feel like I need a more disciplined experience. Now contrast that with my desire to become a Rabbi. People keep saying that they are two careers that compliment each other nicely - Rabbi's need to know how to "perform," they say... so I should do well, they say.

But there's this giant magnet in the theatre that pulls me towards it. I can't escape my desire to always live life on the Stage. capital "S"

To make it all the more complicated - would I have it any other way? - acting is not the only profession I'd see myself pursuing. Lighting and production design have also come to the forefront of my theatre fortes. WHAT TO DO?

I think it's time some of Janette's theatre spirits send me an epiphany.

In the meantime, I'll be looking at the National Theatre School after I graduate York. I know I'm not heading straight to HUC, so NTS might be a nice stop on the way. Or a permanent stop...?